Unseen Roots

As a tree grows, deeper and deeper the roots grow into the darkness. Unseen from the world as it works hard and tirelessly to produce delicious fruits. These roots, covered in dirt, selflessly work throughout the night unappreciated for the work it does for the tree. These are the same roots that gather nutrients and water from the soil to feed the tree. The same roots who uses all of its strength to carry the load of the tree. Without the roots there is no tree, so in the same way without God there is NO ME! Why then do we as Christians question God when we go through the storm. His word says that He works for the good of those who love Him. When we are facing the storm God our roots recieves the water and the nutrients needed through our praise and worship to feed us his word. So I pray the next time that you are facing trials and tribulations you will weather the storm with your praise and worship so that you may be fed through his word.

Trust issues

I used to believe I didn't have any trust issues. That is until I got into a relationship. Well I guess its true what they say you don't know until you are in that situation. But, I don't believe I was always like this. I think this is the making of me trusting too much. I like to think positive before I think negative. I wouldn't expect anyone to do something to me that they wouldn't want done to them. Because, the word does say do onto others as you would gave them do onto you. So, in that case do the people who lied, cheated,  killed, and stole want people to lie to them, cheat on them, kill them, and steal from them? I myself don't want these things done to me so I try my best to not allow these situations to come in my direction. So let me tell you how my trust issues began. It started a little before I got into my first relationship which by the way aren't many. It all started when I was talking to this girl who had a boyfriend. At the time when we started I didn't know she had one. We were talking for a couple months. When I found out she had a boyfriend but, by them we had done a couple of things I am not so proud of. Knowing that we had not made anything official I was going to back off and let her be. When I approached her and told her what I was planning to do she seemed a bit upset. I asked what happened and she said why would I lead her on to just drop her like this? I told her it wasn't like that I just don't like messing up what people already have. I'm not the type to break up a home. So the next day she broke up with the dude, she tried to explain how they were on the rocks and that they were on the verge of breaking up anyways. She then went on to tell me all of the things that he didn't do that I did and how she felt like I was a better guy for her. I'm not gonna lie it felt good to hear that about myself even if I knew that they were not true. I told her that she can go back to him because I knew if she did that to him, I who has never been in a relationship before, she would most definitely do that to me. After some persistence I gave in and we began to move towards being in a relationship. Some weeks had gone by and we made it official and things seemed to have been going great. Then I started to see her ex come around a little too often. My mind began to speculate and I started thinking maybe something is going on. So I began to watch her and him more closely. Every time she come to me she is coming from where he is and when she leaves she heads the same way. So I said to myself if I have two people I'm talking to I would not let them know. Then I had a great idea, I'll ask him if he is still talking/dating her to see what he says. Sure enough he said yes he is (glass shatters) and thus my trust issues began.

Relationships

Have you ever felt like everything was going good in a relationship  and you were finally on the right path. You thought the person you was with, was with you but to your surprise things were not as they seemed. I know that feeling, it has happened to me so much that once I get that feeling I know something is wrong. I can remember one time in middle school I wanted to talk to this girl who I thought was so pretty but I never had the courage to, until one day we were talking and I told her " I going to be honest with you, I think you're pretty and I like you." Thinking to myself I hope she likes me too. Lol Boy was I wrong she shot me down, brought me back to the friend zone and told me that she seen me more as a brother. Taking my heartache like a man I sucked it up and put it behind me. Later on when we got into high school we reconnected through some mutual friends and became friends again. I didn't like her as much as I did in middle school and to be honest I was focused on a lot of other girls I was trying to get with. So when one of my homeboy started talking to her I didn't even take notice. Then one day he and my other homeboy came to me and asked what I thought about her.  I told them I thought she was cute and nothing else. Then as time went on and he was getting no where with her, he began to get frustrated and she began to become annoyed. So my other homeboy said I had a better chance at getting with her than he did.  He said he didn't care he was on to better things and if I wanted to talk to her I could. In my head I thought she would never go for me but you never know until you try. So I started talking to her but after a week she was in a relationship with someone else but I kept at it anyways hoping one day he would slip up. The day came and they broke up, not wanting to rush things I waited a couple days before telling her how I felt about her. The day I told her, the night before they got back together, talk about bad timing. But, I knew there was light at the end of the tunnel because she told me that if she knew the day before how I felt she would not have gotten back with him. So I kept on trying, it was in all from when I first started talking to her about a month when one day I was walking her home and while we were in deep conversation when I peered into her eyes and we leaned and began to make out . After a while she told me that every time she is with me time stops and all her cares and troubles are gone. From that moment on it wasn't long before her and her boyfriend broke up and we began to go steady. I felt like everything was going good. Until three months into the relationship the same homeboy who said he thought I had a better chance with her came and told some news. He told me while he and his girlfriend who is her best friend was "chilling" she came to bring her best friend some food. While he was in his room he heard a deep voice at the door. So when his girlfriend came back he asked her who was at the door with my girlfriend and she responded my girlfriend ex. He then asked do they still talk she said yea and he said no like talk talk. She paused and then answered yes. After hearing this I didn't want to believe it but what reason did he have to lie. However I still did my own research. The same day it happen around the same time she had text me she was way down south and was no where near home. I took it upon myself to ask her ex if he was still talking to her and he told me yes. After that I approached her about the situation purposely not asking when it happened. Her explanation was she saw him and his little brother at Wal-Mart when she went to go buy food for her best friend and she gave them a ride home plus her sister was in the car. Then I asked her around what time did it happen. When she said the time and I noticed that it was around the same time she had sent me the text she was down south I knew it was over. I left the conversation as is never attacking her or accusing her of cheating. A couple days later I told her I think we should just be friends. I felt like she already knew why because she didn't argue she just accepted it but asked that we remain best friends. I really thought that things were good in our relationship but I was terribly wrong. I never knew how she felt about the break up, if she even cared or why she did what she did. I moved on and have been dating my wife to be in what's about to be 4 years and I'm loving every bit of it. I just hope that there is no surprise behind this relationship.

Forever?

Have you ever wondered why we want certain things to last forever? Is it because we think that we can't live without it or the thought of something actually lasting forever gives us some type of joy and we love that feeling? But even when we were little we were always taught that things won't last. Whether it is toys, clothes, money, cars, and even people. When you think about it if most things don't last forever why do we think that love or even relationships will last because it's really the tolerance level we have for one another. So what is forever? For me forever is whatever stands the test of time and doesn't change. An example of that for me would the word of God, its been the same for years. "Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away." (Mark 13:31)

Success

I was always told that success is what you make it, and in order to be successful you must speak successfully, you must think successfully, you must dress successfully, and you must act successful. But they never told me that even though you may do all these things and actually be successful it is all vain without Christ. "For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" (Matthew 16:26). I believe that through Christ we are all successful, and in order to obtain that success we must speak like Christ, we must think like Christ, we must dress like Christ, and we must act like Christ. Then and only then we will obtain the success that can never be voided.

Until next time.... Stay Humble
-Forever Wood

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This is my first blog  on November 10. I'm not accustom to blogging but will make an attempt to blog every day.